September 28, 2001
1:39pm

First, I must apologize for not updating this blog in so long. Once again, the stupid jack in my apartment is acting up. This time, it has completely ceased working. I have to wait until Tuesday to get it fixed, and it will cost me a minimum of $71. Major suckiness!

The time has come for me to admit I have a problem. I really didn't want to go back into therapy. I'm sick of not being a normal person, so I guess I tried to pretend that I was. Well, it ain't workin'. I've skipped classes and work, haven't finished assignments, lost the ability to concentrate; it's just really interfering with my life. Something must be done.

With that conviction in hand I went to the campus Psychological Services (when I should have been in class, oops!). I had to fill out a little paper work. The last question really caught my eye. It said "Is this situation a crisis? Check yes or no." I was very tempted to check yes. After all, my previous delay in getting help has caused my condition to continually worsen. However, I didn't feel like I was about to kill myself or something crazy like that, so I didn't check it. Afterwards the receptionist informed me that I would have to wait at least two weeks for an appointment.

TWO WEEKS!

Then I thought I really should've checked yes. Would they see me sooner if I had? I think a two week wait is a little much. A situation that isn't currently critical could turn downright dire in the span of two weeks. Not to mention that's only for the first appointment. No one gets down to the nitty-gritty of therapy on the first appointment. Two psychiatrists and a counselor obviously isn't enough to handle the university's needs. If we have to pay $20 a session (which I have to pay out of pocket), I think we should have a shorter wait. What am I supposed to do with myself for two weeks?

A friend of mine sent me a link to this site. It has pictures of people all over the world showing support for America during this solemn time. It nearly made me cry, but I was in a computer lab so I tried not to. I didn't know people in other countries cared so much. It's really touching.